Fitting in

You are in a group of people. But you are not actually.

Why and how is that so?

You try to close in the gap, fill up the void, but it's just not enough. You ended up being out of the circle again. And you just don't know why. You don't know what did u lack in. Effort? You have tried every single thing in order for you to literally be IN that group of people.  You try to build a conversation with them. But some things don't work that way.

And soon,  you get tired of trying. You decided  that maybe you don't belong in this. You have come to realise that maybe it's time for you to walk away. After all, what's the point of trying if it all comes back to square one?

Just when you are about to quit on them, you see some tiny little bit of hope. Hope that maybe after all you DO belong in here. Maybe it's just your illusion after all this time. Maybe they are ready to accept you. Maybe you ARE already in the circle and it's just that you don't realise it.

But, you are wrong. Nothing ever changed. Nothing. Things are still the same. And the cycle repeats. 

So, how do you know when is the right time for you to stop trying? Or maybe you shouldn't even try in the first place?

POSTED BY nurathirah ON Thursday, 8 June 2017 @ 12:35
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