Life here

Greetings, and peace be upon you. Life here in Sungai Buloh has been great all in all. Still couldn't believe i'm here, given the chance to do what I actually love to do/to learn. Met lotsa of new people, all of them are so great in a way. When looking at lotsa seniors here, I think of 'WOW, THEY HAVE SURVIVED 4 -5 YEARS IN MED SCHOOL HOW DID THEY DO THAT' 
So a friend of mine recently asked, If I were to choose between love and study, which one would I choose. And I ask her, why can't we do both? Why do we have to sacrifice any one of that? I mean, is it really necessary for us to choose one of those things? 
If it were me, I'd choose both. 
No exception. 
No sacrifice. 
No remorse.
But sadly, I didn't even have to choose one of that. CAUSE I  ONLY HAVE ONE THING TO FOCUS ON AND THAT'S TO STUDY. I have a sad love life, really sad that in 19 years of living in this world (Alhamdulillah), Ive been turned down several times. Never did my love life ever work in the period of 19 years living on this world. None.
Which makes me wonder,WHAT DID I DO WRONG? WHAT AM I LACKING IN? Sigh.

I mean, it's not that the thought of having that special someone in my life is a form of achievement for me, it's just... idk how to put it into words. I know i'm deeply loved by the people around me (well, at least I think so), by Him, but...it's just that...

I honestly don't know why I have been thinking about this and kinda have a sense of urgency when it comes to this thing. I know I shouldn't. I know that when the time comes, 'it' will come, with the right person, in the most perfect sense, at the most right time. I know I should preserve that kinda faith.

And I know that for the time being I should focus on becoming a better version of myself, and I do.

I'm trying.

Ugh, it's one of those late night thoughts. Btw, I'll be having my third Progress Test involving Musculoskeletal Module, please pray for me!!! (I still  have lotsa lectures to be covered )

Thank you, God bless all of you

till then

p/s: Honestly, i couldnt wait to finally use the quote 'ever thine, ever mine, ever ours'

POSTED BY nurathirah ON Tuesday, 2 January 2018 @ 10:07
Alhamdulillah tsumma Alhamdulillah. This past few weeks, ive been struggling to get my hands on that P license hahhahahaha. And the process (Ujian JPJ), I'd say Alhamdulilah it went really well. I got a nice, kind-hearted tester, a guy, and he well cut me some slack in which i dont have to go drive at Jalan A, B or C.. instead dia suruh bawak depan tu je then u-turn. Sekejap je hokaaaay tak sampai setengah jam. I guess sebab candidate ramai nak cepatkan, pluss nak dekat lunch hour dah masa tu so hellooo abang JPJ pun lapar hokaayy.

Tips? Ive got none. But I'd say, ikut je cikgu tu ajar apa, jangan miss marking, kalau tak mampu kawal stereng dengan gempak masa kat S dengan Z, jangan bawak laju-laju hahha. Memang la kena marah tu biasa, pipi terasa membahang but I guess, kalau tak ditegur sampai ke hari test pun bawak. So... rilek rilek je. Kalau kena maki tu lain cerita, pi report!

Okayyy kemudiann ive told you that day pasal interview UKM kan? Today is results day. And it was super unexpected. I mean, i cried kut. Sebab i don't expect results mcm tu. I doa, untuk do Medicine in UKM but God knows better, I was literally shocked and i cried when i looked at the result. Alhamdulillah, berkat doa mak, ayah, cikgu-cikgu, rakan -rakan, i managed to get an offer to do Medicine in UiTM. All praise is due to God alone, and He is indeed the Best of Planner, the Most Merciful.

My instinct said im gonna get something like BioMed, Microbe, and memang rasa ya Allah aku tawakkal. I mean it's not bad kan? Semua bidang ada kelebihan dia sendiri, tak boleh la semua individu kena sama kan? each one of us got our own prints, our own colors, yang tak akan coincide dengan others.

Then.. my sister told me that she dreamt of me pursuing medicine in UiTM. She didnt tell me until today cause she was afraid that maybe after all, it's just a dream. My mother said, i cried regarding something yang ada kena mengena dengan UKM. Well, crying..in a dream it either means it's a good thing or a bad thing. In this case, it definitely means the latter. Then my mom said, 

"Mak nampak Athirah naik ke puncak, tinggi sangat"

Honestly? Rasa macam nak nangis kat situ jugak but well cover oo cover, hati kena sado hahhahha.

Alhamdulillah 😀

And whatever the blessing that has been bestowed upon us, say Alhamdulillah. Dan jadikan setiap nikmat kurniaan Dia itu, sebagai cara untuk kita lebih dekat pada Dia, bukan sebaliknya. Moga-moga kita tergolong dalam kalangan orang orang yang sentiaaasa dekat dengan-Nya, dijauhkan dari istidraj.

To do volunteering works has always been a dream of mine. When im able to do it, i'll revisit this post, inshaaAllah

"It's a beautiful day to save lives"
Salam 'Alaykum 
POSTED BY nurathirah ON Thursday, 3 August 2017 @ 08:07
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