I believe in being a storyteller, or being a poet requires u to completely be naked. U need to be naked so others can feel what u feel, think what you think, thus there it is a success in delivering your own feelings.

Some write to forget, some write to reminisce, while some write just to be able to remember every little things. Well, for me i think i write for all the reasons stated above. 

I think it's a little bit hard and tough for me to deliver my thoughts by speaking thus this is my medium. I find it easier for me to write out my thoughts. Do you? I mean which way suits you better?
Though, sometimes I wonder if the feelings that I felt during writing can be felt too by you guys. Sorry my bad.


I recently watched Reply 1988. A korean drama for those who might ask. It's a really good one. Brilliant plot, talented actors and actresses, superb writer.

I remember this one scene in which Jung Pal's mom (one of the character in that drama) was upset since his own son didn't bother to tell her how's his day at school or...you know the kinda things a son should tell his mother, unlike one of her friend's son who told almost everything to her friend like what did he get in the exam or if he's having any kinda problem, etc)

I guess, as we grow up..whether we realise it or not, the talk between us and our mother grow little. Don't you think so? As much as we want to deny it, that's just the truth. I mean, it's the truth for some of us.

So, what's the first step to re-bond-ing with our parents?

Well..for me.. I think it starts with the smallest of steps. I mean sometime, you refuse to tell your mother about anything because you think it may not seem important to her. Or maybe telling her about anything is not a big deal. Or maybe you just kinda feel like not opening up to her because it's embarassing and you're such a big girl/boy bla bla stuff like that.

First thing first, if you do feel embarassed about telling your mother about anything and everything, pluck up some courage and do tell her anyway. Sometimes, the small steps are the start to something much bigger; a deeper relationship, one that's gonna be cherished despite someone's absence years later. This step, it starts with you and your self. Even if someone encourages you to do so, if you don't take the initiative, you will go nowhere.

Now, trust me, tell your mom even the little-st thing because those little things might mean everything to her. She'll feel needed by her own children. You may not see it but, maybe there's something that your mom can do on behalf of you. Mom's prayer towards every of her children will never be unanswered. Know that.

Remember, In every success that you achieve, every hardships that you manage to get through, every dream that is now within your reach, it is your mother who patiently prays for you and your well-being. It is indeed a blessing to have your mother to watch every steps that you take, in hope that you'll always be composed and bold despite having some hurdles and bumps along the road.

You may not like it if your mother nags about her missing Tupperware, or she nags over undone house chores but trust me this voice of hers will be missed when she's finally leaving this world. It is indeed safe to say, and it's rather not a hyperbole to state that having to lose a mother is as similar as losing your own spine. You will feel your world turn into something so bleak, you could barely see lights ; lost in your own thoughts and your unspoken words. You wish you could have done more good deeds to her just to ease her, talk to her just to hear her voice but at the end of the day this hope of yours will be nothing more than a shout into an abyss.

Well, this is the chance. Use it very,very well. Well enough that there will be no anguish or even pangs of conscience when it's her time to leave. It's never too late. Never.

Al-Fatihah to all supermoms and superdads out there. You deserve the world and so much more. May Allah grant you His permission to enter the highest level of jannah without hisab, InshaaAllah.

POSTED BY nurathirah ON Monday, 15 May 2017 @ 13:23
Young love
She was interested in this boy. So she initiated a conversation with that boy. And it went on and on. She did not take into account of whatever the consequences might be. Well, this is definitely not a mature relationship ; a mature relationship is when an individual think of the consequences of being in a relationship. Would they (both party) be able to handle it? Is this gonna last or is it just a fling? It's those kinda things.

She heard the boy's story. From the story of how the boy kept his feeling towards another girl and had to keep it, because he thought it's not mutual, to how he had such passion in watching anime, to how hard it is for him to ask his parents's permission to work. She heard them all. Sincerely. Attentively.

They grew close of each other. She would tell him the things that she like and the same goes to him. They have (I say this in terms of have because they still do) the same ambition. And they work their ass off to achieve the ambition. Even if they stumble, they would always pick up each other. They embrace each others' flaws and weaknesses. The girl's heart grew profoundly towards the boy. But it's still in the dark as she was afraid if this might somehow affect their friendship.

They managed to continue their studies together. She thought of it as a fate. He thought of it as a mere coincidence. They asked each other almost everyday how did the studies go and etc. The boy started to ask the girl to have a lunch together and even to study together. But the girl refuse to...since she had her personal reasons on not being able to do all those kinda things with the boy. She thought the boy would understand her and her personal reasons. She asked him is it okay if she is unable to accompany him? The boy said, it's okay. He understood her.

But little did she know, there was another girl who was willing to accompany him everywhere, and even had several lunches with him. 

Their relationship started to grow distant. Very distant that a mere 'Hi' would be so awkward. So she kept this feeling of hers knowing that it's not mutual.

She found out later than everyone else that the boy was already in a relationship with the new girl. Things definitely didn't the go the way she would want to..but she was left with no choice. She had to move on. She knew she definitely had to. She went through hard times, was trying to supress the feelings which has been growing for several years in order to salvage their friendship.

She did save it. She managed to do so. But at the cost of having to supress her own feelings. She keeps wondering sometimes,

If and only if she was there to accompany him despite her personal reasons, would everything changed? Will it be mutual? Would it be worth it?
Hate to spoil it but these characters do not exist in real life
POSTED BY nurathirah ON Sunday, 14 May 2017 @ 13:34
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